We went out of town this past weekend. It was a quick trip, only a day and a half. A bit of a whirlwind. My kids love traveling with their daddy when he has to go somewhere for work. Being homeschoolers, we're always on the hunt for a good field trip. A zoo, a local … Continue reading I spent a little time, forgetting.
This past week has been a wild one. My emotions, unstable. My sleep, sporadic. My dreams, terrible. There were days I was an emotional mess. I could't quite figure it out. What was going on? And, then I remembered. My wedding anniversary was coming. I realized that my body, and mind were struggling. "The body … Continue reading Twelve Plus One
I have had a lot of thoughts swirling around in my mind recently. I keep a running list of thoughts, and topics that I want to write about to fully elaborate on. Oftentimes, I'll have a thought and it's only fully fleshed out when I can start to write. Rarely do I have all of … Continue reading An unrelated trigger
"That comparison bit is your work. The trust bit is his work...Keep doing your work, my friend."I reached out to a friend about my most recent struggle concerning physical intimacy, and how paralyzed I felt. It is a good gift to have friends who will be honest with you. Sometimes, oftentimes, healing is your own … Continue reading Pressing on
There's nothing about healing from such intimate betrayal that is easy. But, physical intimacy is downright hard. It's a difficult healing. And, recently, it has felt even more difficult. I'm not even sure why, or how to explain it. It just is. From intrusive thoughts, to emotional breakdowns afterwards. I never know what to expect, … Continue reading Difficult healing
We went out the other evening. He wore a suit, I wore a classic blue fit and flare dress. The flare helped hide the small weight I've gained so far in this pregnancy. Overall, I felt beautiful, and confident, and looking forward to our evening.But, as we mingled in the crowd of people, I wanted … Continue reading Assessing the danger
On a good day, I'm mostly okay. Truly. On a good day, I can be tending to the daily needs of my life and realize that the pain hasn't crossed my mind. The betrayal hasn't consumed me. The healing has been evident. The hard work worth it. And, the bad days? They don't last so … Continue reading Being compared to sin.