Infidelity robs you of feeling important. Nothing about your marriage feels sacred. Nothing feels special. The most intimate details of your life feel grotesquely marred . They feel like illusions, suddenly smashed to pieces, and with it, your very heart broken. I have wrestled with all of these emotions. I have tried to work through … Continue reading To cherish
When I first read that pregnancy test, just days after my husband's full confession, my heart sank. This was bad timing. But, it was God's timing. And, I resolved to trust in Him when my circumstances felt misshaped. I've quickly come to have confidence that this baby is a very intentional gift. An act of … Continue reading Misshaped Circumstances
I'm learning that feeling secure is a funny, fickle thing. Once there is a betrayal like infidelity, all it takes is for the wind to blow wrong, and your security feels threatened - no matter how good things seem to be. My husband and I have been talking about buying a home. This isn't a … Continue reading A credit card
After D-Day number two a group of friends from church gifted me an in-home massage. It took some time, due to an injury, but I was able to enjoy that massage yesterday. The woman who gave me the massage so happens to be a dear friend, a mentor, and one of the few people outside … Continue reading His Spoken Word
Red lipstick, and big earrings. In some ways, those are trademarks of mine. They're something I've become notorious for. When I choose not to wear them, it is mentioned. It didn't always used to be that way. I was a tomboy. A quick pony tail, and slightly baggy clothes were all I was comfortable in. … Continue reading My earrings, and their connection to adultery.
At what point do you finally claim "we're healed"? Is it a time period that goes by, where no thoughts of the betrayal cross your mind? Is it a vow renewal? Is it that magical 18-24 months that some psychologists and experts claim it takes to heal from infidelity trauma? What does it even mean … Continue reading Marriage, redeemed.
One week left. That's all we have to go. We started this relatively intense infidelity recovery program 12 weeks ago. Frankly, I'm tired. It has been good. We've dug into issues such as triggers, the "why", forgiveness, old habits, old hurts, and so much more. We've joined in weekly conference calls with others, also walking … Continue reading One week left